Sunshine and Chocolate

TGIF...really. I'll be so much better after next week's musical is over with. Too much stress!! Tonight is staff bowling/karaoke night and I must say, I'm pumped :) I never see my colleagues outside of school...except for a couple of them. I'm hoping all of them sing their hearts out!

My apologies to anyone who is quitting smoking. I don't mean to make smoking sound like an easy thing to give up...I've been reading up a lot and I'm amazed at what I've found out about it. It's just that I don't happen to be addicted to anything...except maybe caffeiene...I get those headaches around 2:30pm, but that' s nothing really. Just thought I could try a lifestyle change instead of just changing one thing about myself...I thought it might be slightly more comparable that way...I'm probably wrong.

The virus is not my fault...I just happened to be using the computer when all hell broke loose. I'm sorry Donnie...I'll never use your computer again (when it's fixed). In other news, I got a new phone yesterday!! It was free!! I recently found out that you get a new phone every two years...so I got the one with all the bells and whistles :) I'm excited to be joining the rest of the world (or at least suburbia) with owning a camera phone that can download rings and games and lots of other things I don't need to spend money on. And lastly, because I am apparently an evil person and am trying to extend a certain person's life by getting rid of cigarettes, I have decided that I will give up 2 bad things and add one good thing to my life. I am giving up caffeine and fast food (the only one that will be difficult is the caffeine) and I am going to go running/work out 5 times a week. Right now I only go about 2-3 times. These things will probably not be as difficult as giving up smoking, but it's something. Now I'm off to do some lesson planning...

I've got nothin'...

Yesterday I got mad...really mad. So mad that I kinda blacked out for about a minute and a half. I don't remember anything I said. My 8th graders were the victims...but mainly the cause of my anger. I haven't gotten that angry in a REALLY long time...most of you that know me have probably never ever ever seen me even slightly angry. I should've known it would be a shitty day when I got out of my car that morning, opened my umbrella, only to discover that it was inside-out. I had to walk into work in the rain :( The day continued in this fashion until I completely lost it.

Anyway, today I apologized to my class and they simply laughed it off...I told them I felt like I blacked out and they tried to convince me that I had thrown a chair at a student, broke a vase on the floor, punched a concrete wall, and ripped my Director's Script (we're doing a musical) in half :) All in all, a pretty funny conversation...why was I so worried they'd be pissed at me?? It actually seems to have created some sort of motivation for them to work harder...I may have to do this more often...

Sunday night I couldn't sleep, which never happens, but at 12:33am I decided that for my birthday I would give myself a day off. So, I got up at 5:00am, made a lesson plan and went to school with every intention of leaving in 25 minutes. I called in a substitute, laid out all the materials for the day and went home. It was great...and I don't feel an ounce of guilt! Today, however, on my actual birthday, I have a concert, so I won't be able to go home until much later tonight. Now I really don't feel guilty about yesterday...considering today will be a 14 hour work day :( Happy birthday to me...